The Mystery & The Hustle
Hello, welcome to my personal website. I am Merina / Ganga from Nepal — a young individual deeply curious about the wonders and mysteries of life. That curiosity has carried me through some of the most intense seasons a person can face. I come from a lower-middle-class family where we have always had to work constantly just to keep things moving forward.
Since my father's hit-and-run accident, everything changed. He has been in a coma and bedridden for around three years now, requiring constant care, feeding, cleaning, and nursing. My mother and I work around the clock to sustain him. Meanwhile, my younger brother is abroad, working incredibly hard to support our family. We carry the weight of loans and the daily grind — yet within all of that, we find peace, gratitude, and beauty in the life we have right now.
"I strongly hope you do not take this as complaining or looking for sympathy. This is my truth. In this reality, my family and I find peace, happiness, and reasons to wake up, smile, and look toward the future."
Choosing Kindness Over Complaint
I see many people comparing themselves to others or complaining about what they lack. As an empath, I feel these things deeply — but I try never to harm anyone or complain. I stay humble, trusting that we will each arrive where we are supposed to be when the time is right.
My father's accident taught me this. He was the kindest man I have ever known, yet life still gave him — and all of us — this struggle. It showed me that life does not care who is "good" or "bad." Life simply happens. That is perhaps what Maya means. Rather than complaining, it is wiser to understand it. We can all still choose to be kind, loving, and caring in this beautiful, fleeting life.
From the Stage to the Bedside
In a different chapter, when my whole family was healthy and together, I was free to fly. I learned dancing and fashion, won Purwanchal Miss Bishwakarma and Miss Damak 1st Runner-up, choreographed performances, taught dance in schools, and judged pageants. I was also involved in The Joon Project — now the Hunate Movement — researching social systems and natural laws to restructure failing institutions. Life felt limitless.
For the past three years, I have not left my father's bedside. I sometimes feel "late" in life — watching friends on social media get married, travel, or build careers. But despite those moments of doubt, I do my best. I tell life: it is okay.
"Life happens as it has to. All we must do is work for ourselves, our family, our community, nature, and the future. Share what we have in excess. See beauty in all things. Ask for help when needed. Stay positive — life will give us what we need if we learn to remain humble and grateful."
Growth Through Struggle
These years have also been years of immense growth. I started Merry El's – Pinch Of Style, an online 18K gold-plated jewelry store. I began creating content to share my journey, and I received support from people around the world for my father's treatment. Because of that kindness, we were able to take him to Siliguri and Delhi for care — and I am eternally grateful.
That kindness fuels me every day. It reminds me to become a better version of myself — someone capable of helping others when they need it. No one's pain is inherently bigger than another's; struggle is often a matter of perspective. Some take it as a reason for anger. I take it as a reason to grow.
A New Chapter: RAW TALK & Hunate
Right now, while grounded at home, I am learning yoga, meditation, MMA, swimming, sewing, weaving, and gardening. I want to share this journey and inspire someone out there. I have also started the RAW TALK YouTube podcast with my dear friend Khem, founder of the Hunate Movement — a man of vast knowledge spanning Ayurveda, permaculture, modern science, and ethical leadership.
Khem helped me find my purpose and overcome limiting mental patterns. I encourage anyone seeking a new direction in life to connect with him at khemrajpradhan.com.np.